(WRITER) Philosophy study_ Simone_ Existentialism_Why So Serious?

Driving Force

Human needs a driving force, a character also needs a driving force to live. We all human are born, and finding the reason to live. Yet, how about a child’s reason to live? Does child’s motivation of being alive is same as an adult? Let’s say, children’s way of looking at world and adult's way of looking at the world is different. Child’s lack of understanding world gives a blessing of being innocent. Lack of their knowledge makes them “blind” on the other hand, adult's knowing too much things in the world imprison themselves into a new form of blindness, the acceptance of being “serious”, which the word that Simone constantly mentioned on her article. If that’s the case, how can we distinguish what’s right and wrong, if we distinguish the world based on the intensity of innocence?

My life wasn’t always going “right” way comparing to the majority students when I was in the early stage of my childhood. I was the student, who you can see in the Jean Pierre Jeunet’s Amilie’s boy friend, I was a bit different. People asked me to be “Serious”, people forced me into following their rules, and limit my limitless fantasy world in my first grade. I remembered that I hated the school so much that I took the bus transferred two times and finding my mother’s clothes shop at the the other side of the city. The school was technically, shocked about it and I remembered that I had to explain to the cops at the end of the day. My mother was crying. But, on the other hand, I bought a pack of napkins for my mother as a gift, when I arrived to my mother. Later, my mother said, I bought the napkins, because several days ago, she told my grandmother to buy some papers in the house, and she said that I might have remembered the discussion between my mother and grand mother.

The story seemed to be going happy ending, in fact, it went very wrong. Because of my lack of focusing in the school, and consistency of absent and doing all kind of things, I had to go to see the psychologist in a big hospital in the city. Furthermore, my parents started to perceive me as a child who has a “Problem” of learning discipline. My parents specifically asked my teachers to give me a hard time on learning discipline using some of violence method, such as using stick spank, put me into a small dark garage, and under the desk knee on the ground over the hours.

All these efforts were made for me to be “serious” in their world.

I hated the method, and I became more and more violence as the time goes. At the end, my psychologist checked my IQ and EQ, he realized that I am a child who absorbed too much information in a short amount of time that I just needed a break and all kind of these small behavior is reflecting that I was trying to get away with to protect myself unconsciously.

Since that day, my parents gave up on me teaching a discipline. In 2016, people call me, “Serious man”, “ hard worker”, and “a thinker” As you can see, I am a person who becomes the serious man, who isn’t belong to the majority “Not-so serious” group of people. In any case, I became one of the most disciplined man around my field, and people trust my words as a professional.

Ironically, early childhood people asked me to be serious, and now people are saying I am too serious… I made myself a conclude that these two seriousness are different, and yet it’s connected in a way referring to Simone’s existentialism. Ultimately, people tend to ask me to be a part of them and ask me to copy the actions and consequences that they made. The word “Seriousness” is no longer valid to explain in this case, perhaps we should call “why wasn’t I following all others?” or perhaps, “ Why am I different comparing to others?”

The ambiguity is a great things to finish her theory in an open ending nicely, yet these choices of vocabulary might be valid for numbers of the scenes and situations. One thing that I can understand about her theory is that if everyone goes only a way, how could we find the another way that might give us the way to out of the cave and see the first colorful world like the caveman?

Again, in terms of buddhism’s being “Release, and Awakened”, it needs significant effort to get rid of the all the elements of being aware of human being, than you could find yourself behind all that after you’ve forgotten the fact that all your “useless desires”

My question would be, what’s the fine line between what’s being serious, and what’s not being serious in this case? According to Simone, I might be the child who hasn’t been to be an adult yet. Which, ultimately, she would call me a person who is in a partially, “Good condition”, but again, how could we defined them?

Honestly, the more I read about her theory, the more I am getting confused. It’s because the seriousness could be very subjective. It really depends on the situation, culture, location and your age.